Tonight.

Tonight, I am calm. I shall remain calm.

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Actually, I'm just quiet. As my MSN name says, "I'll just smile at you, and keep quiet."

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I am listening to Arashi's "Aozora Pedal". I was thinking of something odd. 

Pedal = Pedaru = Pedoru = Pedo.

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I don't really feel like RPing. Nor do I feel like talking much.

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I am having a very calm, and peaceful conversation with Gerard. Somehow, it's a pretty deep topic to talk about.

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I am secretly in pain. But I still want to smile.

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Zushi was talking to be about odd things earlier on. But I was listening anyway. Though I'm not making much comments. I'm sort of glad he's not saying anything now. I need my space.

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I wonder if I should go offline on MSN now?

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I was reminiscing about last year. Still. Oh those joyful times.

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I wonder if me, Nacchan, Ian and Kuroru will ever face a love crisis all at the same time?

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If there's one song to suit my mood now, it's either Arashi's "Aozora Pedal" or Jesse McCartney's "Take your sweet time".

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I wonder if I should take the day off the internet tomorrow to meditate, or think over things. I am still unclear of my future.

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I shall go read my horoscope forecasts for both Monkey and Sagittarius.

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I'll feel better if I do that.

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I sort of need to hear someone talk to me about these stuff. But I don't want to ask people to talk to me.

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If I drew a picture now, it'll be of my RP characters staring out of the window, and in thoughts. But they'll all be alone in their own room, or outside.

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I wonder if anyone realises that I like working solo.

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Attachment to someone makes me uneasy. I shall not get attached to anyone this year.

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I'm still smiling. I'll keep to myself for now.

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Surprisingly, I have nothing weird to say. I must be out of it.

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My bathroom lights had a little spark before it stopped working. In the evening. Now, how am I supposed to use the bathroom?

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I hope my fears of ghosts doesn't come tonight.

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Then again, it might be phobia. I'm always going crazy at the mention of that.

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I shall listen to Konayuki or Aozora Pedal when I sleep tonight.

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I'm going to reply to Okita-san's RP PM before I go to sleep tonight. I might have writer's block for sure.

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Lovely Complex, I definitely love it.

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Hi anyone who's reading this.

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My mom told me that she was thinking of buying me a camera. I told her what I like. She seemed a bit surprised that I didn't choose a modern looking one.

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I think I'll go to sleep soon. Or maybe now. Whichever I feel like.

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Good night, everyone.

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By the way, I am still calm.

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Some meme.

I stole it from my friends on LJ. Lol. (´ ▽ ` ; )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 5 people about this game.

• Kimochi warui is the one that you love.

• Rei is one you like but can't work out.

• You care most about Nacchan.

• Ian is the one who knows you very well.

• Mom is your lucky star.

• Hero is the song that matches with Kimochi warui.

• Love so sweet is the song for Rei.

• Konayuki is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.

• and Itsuka no Summer is the song telling you how you feel about life

Take this quiz

Uhmm. Sort of accurate~ You should try it. Lol.

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Nacchan, I'm calling him "Kimochi Warui~"

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I was actually going to write Rei first after my 2nd thought, but it told me to write what I thought of first.

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I'm now listening to Konayuki, and looking up the translation and wonder if that's what my mind is right now.

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I was blushy for 5 minutes. Lol.

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I feel like going emo now.

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Nino..

I can't imagine Nino as a dad. Neither can I imagine MatsuJun as a dad. The end.

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Lovely Complex

I finally got my hands on the CD. After a long time of searching. Before, Asshie was SUPPOSED to lend it to me, but I don't know what's going on his tiny puny -censored cursing- head of his that he DOESN'T remember about it. After all. I gave him my memory card and this is how he repays me. Gee. Thanks. I feel so loved. -put imaginary mean sarcastic remark here-

┐(￣ヘ￣）┌

The actress for Risa is mecha kawaii. I like Risa~

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Teppei as Otani is just the best thing everrrrrr.

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Now, I shall go catch up with the manga and also Nodame Cantabile.

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Note my new label. Lol. I'm staring at you, Asshie. With a disappointed look. While I shake my head.

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Oh, mom. You and your image of your daughter. ❤

Today, I went out to Swensens for lunch with mom again. We got to talking again.

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Then, we were talking about guys.

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And she said, "I can't imagine your boyfriend being a local. Though, I can imagine that he'll be Chinese." Oh mom. ❤ You know your daughter quite well~

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GAIZ, I will have Chinese future!husband with my mommy's approval.

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I want it someone to be like Rei. Yeah. It's Rei, not Ren. Wikipedia failed nii-chan. Nii-chan failed me. I am now secretly upset at my new best friend.

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Reeeeei~

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Lol. Bao is a drug. Isn't that bad?

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(´ ω ` ; ) Another old meme?

(´ ω ` ; ) Uber steal, steal. I'm just bored like hell.

I shall laugh at my answers later on. Actually, I'll just change the answer I want to change. Then I'll laugh at that after~ ❤

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Starting time: 11:21am

Name: Kaoru (I lie~ ♫ You should know what my name is.)

Sisters: One

Brothers: None

Shoe size: 8 (somewhere there)

Height: 158 - 160 cm

Where do you live: A house close to the seaside ❤

Favourite drinks: Anything fruity, anything chocolatey, MELON MILK ❤

Favourite breakfast: Sandwich that is not made of sand nor witch.

Have you ever...

Been on a plane?: Yes.

Swam in the ocean: No.

Fallen asleep at school: Yes.

Broken someone's heart: 3 times, bby. ❤

Fallen off your chair: Ye- no. I don't think I have.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes. ❤ He's not my BF though. |D;;

Saved emails: Yes. I have around 12,000 unread emails. ❤ LJ notifications are so odd.

What is your room like?: White wall, brick wall, window, white wall, window, white wall, brick wall, glass door, white wall, wooden door, white wall, window ❤

What's right beside you?: My 嵐 & カオル Calligraphy thing.

What was the last thing you ate: UHM. Soft cookies. |D;;

Ever had chicken pox: Yes.

Sore throat: Yes.

Stitches: Yes. In my mouth~

Broken nose: No.

Do you believe in love at first sight: I believe in crush at first sight. ❤

Like picnics: Yes. ❤

Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: Myself. I was dancing to SUMMER TIME. |D;; Or 'It's My Soul'.

You last yelled at: IDK.

Today did you...

Talk to someone you like: Well, of course. ❤ I talk to my friends. But it's still morning. ❤

Kiss anyone: Jinx, the black morbid bunneh. ❤ I kissed my pillow too.

Get sick: No.

Talk to an ex: No.

Miss someone: UHM. No. Yes. Probably. Nah, I don't. ❤ Actually I do. I MISS IAN. And Tashan! 

Eat: Yes. 

Best feeling in the world: Joy and excitement with those you love and care about~ ❤

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yes. Most of them are gifts from people- oh wait, half of them are gifts, but the other half was just a result of me spoiling myself. ❤

What's under your bed: Dust bunnies.

Who do you really hate: Oh errr... IDK. I don't want to talk about it~ ❤

What time is it now: 11:24am

Random:

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Myself. ❤ I am secretly laughing at my own answers. I am secretly thinking about someone. And it's not Arashi. I am suddenly frowning at my own thoughts now.

Do you have any siblings: Yes. One. She + Me = ...err.. Ryutaro & Shintaro with a huge arguement and has no talked to each other for more than two years~ ❤

Do you want children: Yes. o: I have already planned out my life plan! ❤

Do you smile often: I smile.. at times when people talk to me. Otherwise, I just stare with a dazed expression. 

Do you like your hand-writing: Not really. It's like chicken poop. ❤

Are your toenails painted: I'm planning to~ ❤ Blaaaack.

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: The bed in the hotel in SG. ): So comfy. 

What colour shirt are you wearing now: Dark purple? And then a white guy's buttoned up shirt. ❤ It's my new jacket now.

What were you doing at 7.00PM yesterday: Go hyper. Online. Blog. Maybe. ❤ Random PMs on Gaia. I'm pri-tty sure I was talking to one guy about the way how he walked, and the other about snowboarding. Lol. STFU. We just suck at talking.

Are you a friendly person: A part of me says yes, but the rest of them, which is like 99% says no. ): Though, I am secretly saying that I am. ❤

Do you have any pets: A KITTY. Named Skywalker. SHE is called Sky though~ ❤ 

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you: My daddy, is my daddy. I love my daddy. ❤ Or maybe it was my mummy. I love my mummy too. ❤

Do you sleep with the TV on: If I have one in my room. ❤ Probably. But my laptop, yesss. I must have music on.

What are you doing right now: Answering this~ ❤ And thinking that I'm abusing the hearts.

Have you ever crawled through a window: I have.

Can you handle the truth? Depends on what it is. But usually, I can. If I cannot, I will only give a very late reponse... in a few days time. ❤

Are you too forgiving: I'm not that forgiving. But I am accepting. ❤ Maybe. I hold a lot of grudges.

Are you closer to your mother or father: My daddy knows what I'd like, but my mummy knows the current stuff going on. ❤

Who was the last person you cried in front of: Myself. I'm still a person.

Do you eat healthy?: Maybe. Maybe not. I have an unhealthy obsession over.. over.. Lolita clothing~ ❤ I LIE. I have an unhealthy obsession over... *shifty eyes* my new emoticon. ❤

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: I shake my foot to take. *shakes foot*

Are you confident: At times. But my confidence can die out easily.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

1. I was being adorably innocent.

2. I don't feel the need to acknowledge the boys.

3. I was watching cartoons, and talking bugs bunny speak! ❤

4. I don't care about studies. 

5. I liked watching my sister play her games.

5 things on my to-do list today:

1. Sleep

2. Eat

3. Hikaru

4. Ren. I want to do him. One day. Lol. Pedo ❤

5. Top Laugh at you gaiz

5 snacks I enjoy:

1. Fruits

2. Sweet Food

3. Ren. No actually, Ren would be a full course meal. ❤

4. Dried Wasabi-Flavoured Seaweed

5. Ren's Pants Candy

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

1. Eat

2. Sleep

3. Drink

4. Travel

5. Buy stuff

5 of my bad habits:

1. Getting distracted easily

2. Forgetful

3. Always gives in to urges 

4. Pedo, fangirl, pervert side

5. Sleeping a lot at any place

5 places I have lived in:

1. This house

2. That other house

3. The house in front of that other house

4. Grandma's house

5. Imaginary life of having babies with Ren ❤

5 jobs I've had:

1. Student

2. Blogger

3. Fan fiction writer / Fangirl ❤

4. Pedo

5. The sleeping old man in the 'It's raining, it's falling, the old man is snoring' song.

Comment to this post (state if you want) and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ blog and elaborate on the subjects given

From Sachi:

❤ Hikaru - Favourite member in Hey! Say! JUMP. The other half of the non-existant HiKaoru OTP ❤ He can be papa, and I can be mama. We'll be romantic all the time. In my dreams that is. But that dream is crushed now. ):

❤ Pedoness - Big flaw, big secret. Sort of proud of it, but other than that, PEDO is cool yo ❤ My parents have yet to know about it.

❤ RP - Hobby. Love it. Sci-fi? Kill me. ): I tend to mistaken it as RAPE. Best place to show my pedoness ❤

❤ Vocaloid - Cool.. yo. Program that allows people to make songs by adjusting tone, and pitch. They're robots. And they're hawt, morbid, and horrifyingly psychotic. I go insane watching them~ ❤ Especially the twins. I love them. Both Len and Rin. I want to be their older sister. Period. Meiko can have all the wine she wants. I will bully and instinctively turn seme on Kaito. I will turn into a cute uke with Miku. I'll be the older sister of the Kagamine Twins. And I will need to know the rest like Gakupo, Luca, etc.

❤ Chicken Soup - The one that brought Yamada & Chinen together in my unfinished Yamachii story. Don't kill me, Sachi. ❤ Ren is like Bao a drug to me. ):

... (´ ω ` ; ) Innocence meme.

(´ ω ` ; ) I shall go steal materials from my previous blog. Lol. Or new one.

From my LJ.

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as your __% innocent.

1. Smoked

2. Drank alcohol.

3. Cried when someone died.

4. Been drunk.

5. Had sex.

6. Been to a concert.

7. Gotten/given a hand job.

8. Been verbally/sexually harassed.

9. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 94% *laughs* You can tell what I haven't done before.

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.

12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.

13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.

14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.

15. Been to prom.

16. Cried at school. 

17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.

18. Went streaking.

19. Given or received a lap dance.

20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 90% No comment.

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.

22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.

23. Kissed a stranger.

24. Hugged a stranger.

25. Went scuba diving.

26. Driven a car.

27. Gotten an x-ray.

28. Hit by a car.

29. Had a party.

30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 88% Now, which two have I done before?

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.

32. Got paid to strip for someone.

33. Run away from home.

34. Broken a bone.

35. Eaten sushi. 

36. Bought porn.

37. Watched porn.

38. Made porn.

39. Made beans.

40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84% Hehe. How is eating sushi a bad thing?~

41. French kissed.

42. Laughed so hard you cried.

43. Cried yourself to sleep.

44. Laughed yourself to sleep.

45. Stabbed yourself.

46. Shot a gun.

47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.

48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.

49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.

50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77% Now YOU guess which three I haven't done before.

51. Watched a person die.

52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.

53. Pranked somebody.

54. Put somebody in the hospital.

55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.

56. Made spicy beans.

57. Dressed punk.

58. Dressed Goth.

59. Dressed preppy.

60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 73% (:

61. Avoided somebody.

62. Been stalked.

63. Stalked someone.

64. Met a celebrity.

65. Played an instrument.

66. Ridden a horse. 

67. Cut yourself.

68. Bungee jumped.

69. Ding dong ditched somebody.

70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 66% La tee da~

71. Been caught stealing something.

72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.

73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.

74. Gone out with your friend's crush.

75. Got arrested.

76. Been pregnant.

77. Babysat.

78. Been to another country.

79. Started your house on fire.

80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62% Heeh. According to my mom, I used to see ghosts when I was young. I often get pinched by one when I was young too.

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.

82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.

83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.

84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.

85. Sat on your butt all day.

86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.

87. Had a job.

88. Gotten cut from a sports team.

89. Been called a whore.

90. Danced like a whore .

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56% *cough*

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.

92. Been in a car accident.

93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.

94. Been told you have beautiful hair.

95. Raped somebody.

96. Danced in the rain. 

97. Been rejected.

98. Left a restaurant without paying.

99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.

100. Been raped

FINAL PERCENTAGE: 49% Ehe. I'm not even considered 'innocent' anymore.

(´ ω ` ; ) Anyone can do this.

Fight-OH!

Nacchan, Ian, let's go bungee jumping off the cliff after this.

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FIGHT SONG

By Arashi

You'd better not say something like

"You're fine as you are"

It's a new beginning from there on, isn't it?

You look your best like this

People are people

You are yourself

You lose once you start comparing

The strength you have not to lose against yourself

Will break down any wall

It's okay to cry sometimes

It's okay to show your weaknesses

But don't stagnate there!

You can still achieve it

The dreams (that lie) ahead

Better than any other myriad of words

Just one is fine

First, try stepping forward 

With a "GANBARE!"

Just something as simple as that is fine

You have worries right now, right?

You have times when you are down, right?

But if there's somewhere in the future where we can laugh together

Then a path can be made

Better than any other myriad of words

Just one is fine

At last, you've stepped one foot forward

"GANBARE!" See, you look your best. 

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Lyrics came from : here