Don't mind this entry. Just skip it. In fact, skip it all. Lol.

I'm losing itt. no wait.. I've lost it! BUT I DON'T CARE NO I DONT. I am now laughing at stupid people lol. like you.

Well, aren't you childsh? Get a grip on yourself.

SHUT UP SHUP UP{OUINI DONT FCK*INSJV CARE

And you wonder why you don't have friends.

AAAAAAAAAFYTFZSDHYHGH STUPID GO AWAY I AM IN CONTROL OKAY STUF UPSNWLIFB"IHIP!!

If you're going to be childish like this, it's no wonder you're losing it. Just calm down.

CALM DOWN WHY SHOULD I DONT WANT TO I DONT CARE YOU SHOULDNT CARE ITS MY LIFE ITS MINE MINE MIIIIINE

See, you're even talking to yourself.

YOU'RE NOT PART OF THIS SO SHUT UP WHAT DO YOU KNOW BITCH

You're the bitch here. Just go... sleep. Go and rest. Please, just keep quiet.

WHY SHOULD I EGUIFGOWEHFOUHP I DONT WANT TO WHY WHY WHY WHY&Y WHY WHY WHY WHYW HWYHWHHWHYWOF:GHPIWBHCJOFSKBHPCHIBL

You're incredibly childish, na. What ever happened to "I'm strong. I can pass this."?

SHUT UP ITS MY LIFE SO GOA WAAGW&*YI I DONT CARE ANYMORE I DONT JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME BE. Just.. shut up....

I'm fine. I'm fine now. Please don't worry about me.

Hiatus.

Hiatus.

I'm going on a hiatus. Not sure for how long, but until I get better. Okay. Bye.

I'm back. Still not fine. But still. Still.

Memeeee

Got it from LJ

1. Do you have secrets ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Well, of course.

2. Would you fall in love with a girl/guy younger than you ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Considering I'm a pedo, yes, I would.

3. Do you enjoy going to school ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Depends on my mood. I may, I may not.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Live normally, but with even more stuff.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) My best friend is a girl. Convince me to swing my door towards girls, maybe. But no.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?

Loving someone. (´ ▽ ` ; ) Being loved is nice, but for me, it sometimes get.. well.. if he was a close friend who I care about, I would worry about doing things that might hurt him, while if I love someone, it makes me happy seeing them happy. So yeah.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Too much! Tooo muuuuch soooongs to pick frooooom.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Uhm. I would secretly support him and cheer him on. If there are days when he's just sad, I'll try to cheer up him, but I wouldn't dare making a move on him.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I can't say. I've been calm, but not happy.

10. What makes you angry ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Myself. I'm angry at myself somehow. Though, it's more like disappointed than angry.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Working? I'll be pregnant too~ With a boy~ And married~ To Rei/Len/Hikaru/Keito/Takaki/Yabu/Shoon/Taiyou~

12. Who is currently the most important people to you ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Myself. My family. Myself. My friends. Myself. My stuff. Myself. People who create music. Myself.

13. What is the most important thing in life ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Different things are important to different people. For me, I guess relationships and bonds?

14. Single or attached ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I'm single, but my feelings are attached to something. T'is my stuff. Sad, isn't it.

15. What is your favourite colour ?

Green, orange? Blue, black, grey. I'm beginning to like red. (´ ▽ ` ; )

16. Would you give all in a relationship ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) No. I'll give in enough attention and effort into my relationship, but not everything. I have other things to worry about still.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) The one who I love more? But I think it'll be on the same level, no? I would say, it depends on the guy. His personalities and all?

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Depending on what it is. I'm the type who holds grudges.

19. What do you want to tell the person you like ?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) The person that I like? "Notice me more!" or "Please don't take advantage of my feelings," or "Come to me when you're feeling down. I will try and help cheer you up. But don't fret, I will not think about using this opportunity to 'attack' you." Something like that.

140 Life Experiences. I've Had 77

Level 1

( ) I had an asthma attack

( ) Smoked A Cigarette

( ) Smoked A Cigar

( ) Tried Weed

(x) Drank Alcohol

(x) Been In Love

( ) Been Dumped

( ) Been Fired

(x) Been In A Fist Fight

( ) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House

total so far: 3

Level 2

(x)Ever Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back

( ) Been Arrested/Seen Someone You Know Get Arrested

( ) Made Out With A Stranger

( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date

(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person (older than me by 3 years)

(x) Skipped School

( ) Slept With A Co-worker

(x) Seen Something Die

total so far: 7

Level 3

(x) Been On A Plane

(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

(x) Eaten Sushi

( ) Been Snowboarding

( ) Met Someone you met on Myspace

( ) Been Mosh Pitting

(x)Taken Pain Killers

(x) Love(d) or Lust(d) Someone Who You Can't Have

(x) Been in a bad relationship

total so far: 13

Level 4

(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By

( ) Made A Snow Angel

(x) Had A Tea Party

(x) Flown A Kite

(x) Built A Sand Castle

(x) Gone Puddle Jumping

(x) Played Dress Up

(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves

( ) Gone Sledding

(x) Cheated While Playing A Game

total so far: 21

Level 5

(x) Been Lonely

(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

( ) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID

(x) Watched The Sun Set/Sun Rise

( ) Felt An Earthquake

( ) Kissed A Snake

(x) Been Tickled

( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized

( ) Robbed Someone

(x) Been Misunderstood

total so far: 26

Level 6

( ) Pet A Deer

(x) Won A Contest

( ) Been Suspended

(x) Had Detention

(x) Been In A Car/ Motorcycle Accident

( ) Had / Have Braces

(x) Eaten A Whole Pint Of Ice Cream In One Night

(x) Had Deja Vu

(x) Danced In The Moonlight

(x) Hated The Way You Look

total so far: 33

Level 7

(x) Witnessed A Crime

(x) Questioned Your Heart

(x)Been Obsessed with Post-It-Notes

(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud

(x) Been Lost

(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World

( ) Swam In The Ocean

(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep

total so far: 41

Level 8

( ) Played Cops And Robbers

(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers

(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't

(x) Made Prank Phone Calls

(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose

( ) Kissed In The Rain

( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus

( ) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe

total so far: 45

Level 9

(x) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About

(x) Blown Bubbles

(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach

( ) Crashed A Party

( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People

( ) Gone Rollerskating / Blading

(x) Had A Wish Come True

( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

(x) Worn Pearls

(x) Jumped Off A Ledge Into Water

total so far: 51

Level 10

( ) Screamed "Penis" In Class

( ) Swam With Dolphins

(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/Ice Cube

( ) Kissed A Fish

(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes

(x) Sat On A Roof Top.

(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs

( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel

( ) Talked On The Phone For 6 Hours Straight.

(x) Stayed Up All Night

total so far: 56

Level 11

( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree

(x) Climbed A Tree

(x) Had / Been In A Tree House

(x)Have Been/Are Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

(x) Seen/ Felt A Ghost

( ) Have/ Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes or Flip Flops

( ) Gone Streaking

( ) Been to/Visited Someone At Jail

( ) Played Chicken

(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On

total so far: 61

Level 12

( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger

(x) Broken A Bone

(x) Been Easily Amused

( ) Caught A Fish

(x) Caught A Butterfly

(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried

(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

( ) Mooned / Flashed Someone

( ) Had someone Moon / Flash You

total so far: 66

Level 13

(x) Cheated On A Test

(x) Forgotten Someone's Name

( ) Slept Naked

(x) French Braided Someones Hair

( ) Gone Skinny Dipping In A Pool (hot tub)

( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

(x)Rode A Roller Coaster

(x) Went Scuba-Diving / Snorkeling

( ) Had A Cavity

total so far: 71

Level 14

(x) Been Used

(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs

(x) Been Licked A Cat

(x) Bitten Someone

(x) Licked Someone

( ) Been Shot At With A Paint Ball/BB Gun

( ) Had Sex In A Field/Garden

( ) Flattened Someone's Tires

( ) Drove In A Car Until The Gas Light Came On

(x) Had Bought Something When You Had Only $5.

total: 77

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Random meme

RANDOM MEME

1. Can you cook?

I can cook simple food, so yes. (´ ▽ ` ; ) I cook for myself everyday though.

2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I'd panick and try to stay calm, before getting a bit frightened by everything. If I was alone, I'll be VERY scared and traumatized.

3. What talent do you wish you had? 

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Uhmm. Either be able to play the piano well, or to be able to speak and understand at a lot of different languages.

4. Favorite place? 

By the seaside during a cloudy day, or a vast green grass field on a cloudy, windy day.

5. Favorite vegetable? 

Asparagus, broccoli, carrots, sweet potato? Uhm. Yeah. (´ ▽ ` ; )

6. What was the last book you read? 

....... (´ ▽ ` ; ) *obviously doesn't remember and hasn't been reading much*

7. Are you Dirty or Clean? 

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I think.. I'm clean on the outside? But I can be dirty-minded.

8. Any tattoos and/or piercings? 

Two piercings on my left ear, one on my right. I might want to pierce another hole on each sides of my ears. (´ ▽ ` ; )

9. Worst habit? 

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I have a lot. I get distracted easily, and I'm so lazy. I'm also forgetful. But I think my worst habit has got to be my mood swing or personality change?

JUMP meme

JUMP Meme

1. Who would you get caught in bed with?

Takaki, or Hikaru. Lol. Takaki is just too hawt to resist. (´ ▽ ` ; )

2. Who would you most likely get into a fight with?

Chinen. Or Yamada. I probably would get into a friendly fight with Ryutaro~ But the earlier two, definitely.

3. Who do you think is hot?

Takaki = MAX hot. (´ ▽ ` ; ) Okay, that sounded better with food.

4. Who will you most likely marry?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Hikaru, or Keito. I don't mind Yabu or Ryutaro either~ OH OH TAKAKI!

5. Who would you go on a date with?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Takaki, or Hikaru. Or Keito.

6. Who is most like you?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Chinen + Hikaru. Lol. Chinen is as spoiled as me, while Hikaru is as dorky as me.

7. Who could you be enemies with?

Chinen. Or Yamada. Lol. INOO. I'll fight over Hikaru with hiiiiim.

8. Who would be your hang out/shopping buddy?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Keitoooo. Or Yutoooo. (Wow, I just realised that their names are similar to Keita and Yuuta! Just the o to a.)

9. Who will you have a one night stand with?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Uhm. Takaki.

10. Who will get along with your parents/family?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I don't think Takaki will get along with my parents well. Maybe Yabu? Keito and Hikaru seems shy. AH. Ryuutaro!

11. Who would you fall in love with?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Hikaru. Or Yabu. Or both.

12. Who would you want to be your brother?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Takaki (now won't that be incest?) as my older brother. He likes spoiling Chinen~ I'd want to be spoiled by him. DAIKI too. Ryuutaro as my younger brother. And Keito. (Okay, everything's just incest okay.)

13. How would you confess your love for them?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I... wouldn't. I'm not the type to confess to someone if I like them. Then again, if I really can't stand it anymore, I'll just... say it when it feels right. Something like, "I like you. But honestly, I'd rather not say it to you since I know things would change after this. So, if it's weird, just forget about it, okay? It's already nice like this." Though, I think that I'm more likely to say it before I leave? Yeah.

14. Who do you think has the sexiest body?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Takaki, Keito, and Hikaru. I like Yabu's body too, but he's so thin~

15. Who do you think will give the best sex ever?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Takaki. His body seems to move so smoothly.

16. Situation: You saw the most gorgeous dress that you want to buy for a function but the price explodes right out of your budget, so you go up to one of the boys and ask to borrow some of his money. His reaction would be…

(´ ▽ ` ; ) "Ehh. What dress is it? Can I see it?" Maybe. IDK. I was thinking of Hikaru's though.

17. What nicknames would you call the boys?

Ya~buta, Yuu-chan, Inoo-chan, Hikapyon, Dai-chan, Keito, Yama-chan, Yuuto, Chii-chan, Ryutaro

18. Who is most likely to settle in a quiet town beside the beach and find pleasure sitting and watching the sun rise and set?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) Is it wrong if I said Hikaru? He said that he'd want his first time when watching the sunset, making it seem as if he was the romantic type? I can't say if he's the peaceful type though.

19. Who is most likely to be spotted at the buffet table?

Yuuto and Yama-chan. (´ ▽ ` ; )

20. Who would you like to go on an exotic vacation in Italy with?

(´ ▽ ` ; ) I don't know why, but I'd want to go with Inoo somehow! And Keito!

21. Who do you want to be the godfather of your kids (with any of the boys)?

Yabu shall be the godfather of mine and Hikaru's children. (´ ▽ ` ; )

Complete the phrase

Taken from my LJ

"Complete the phrase" meme~

A) Complete the phrase.

B) Tag 5 people to do the meme.

C) Feel free to add more!

1. Love is one of the best things in the world.

2. Life moves on, slowly.

3. I am searching for dream and hopes, while holding onto my memories.

4. Being insane is what I do when I don't know what to do, and who to turn to.

5. I've come to realize that when I laugh, that's when I want to forget everything around me and indulge myself in stuff that is funny and happy.

6. God is someone who I want to prove my worth to.

7. The world goes on and on.

8. F*ck can either mean a curse, or sex, though if it's sex, I'll just grin stupidly, while fantasizing about Rei or Len.

9. Daydreaming is what I do when I'm bored, but it's so often about the people I like, for example, Hikaru.

10. Night time is when people go on.

11. TakaYama is Jen's OTP, not mine.

I'm 80% Asian

I am 80% Asian!

Took this meme from my LJ.

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia

[x] You were born in Asia

[ ] You use the term "Azn" 

[x] You think DDR is cool

[x] You've watched lots of anime

[x] You like Korean drama

[x] You have stuff hanging on your phone

[ ] You think your parents want you to marry within your own race

[x] You eat rice almost everyday

[x] You drink lemon tea

X's so far: 8

[x] You style your hair

[x] You have a bebo/myspace/friendster

[x] You speak languages other than English

[x] Your parents are strict

[x] Your parents have high expectations of you

[x] You always get A's/B's on your report

[x] You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting

[x] You know your multiplication table

[ ] You play badminton or table tennis or Irish Pingpong

[ ] You've seen the asian version The ring/The grudge

X's so far: 16

[x] You go/want to go to a university and would NEVER consider an apprenticeship

[ ] You own an asian car (Honda, Toyota, etc)

[x] You're not the only child

[x] You've gotten little red envelopes around February (Chinese New Year)

[ ] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do

[ ] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted

[ ] You can solve a rubiks cube 

[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house

[x] You play video games

X's so far: 21

[x] Everytime you're going out, your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home

[ ] You have karaoke at home

[x] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times

[x] You have incense sticks/moth balls in your house

[x] You own a gaming console

[x] You don't wear shoes in your house

[x] You can use chopsticks

[x] You get nothing if you do well in school, but punished if you don't

X's so far: 28

[x] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day

[x] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod

[x] You don't like football

[ ] You like Soccer

X's so far: 31

[x] You have a curfew

[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means

[x] You know what purikura is

[x] You like bubble tea

[ ] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come

[x] You've played final fantasy

[x] You believe in fortune cookies

X's so far: 36

[x] You know what is bok choy

[x] You've heard the song "Got rice?"

[x] You've had pockys/yan yan before

[x] When you ask for your mum's permission she goes "ask your dad"

Total X's: 40

Multiply your total score by 2 and put the subject as I am _% Asian!

White X'mas - KAT-TUN

credits to: akicute@videouncovered

WHITE X'MAS - KAT-TUN

The street glittered with silver as rain becomes snow

I saw the dream colored future on that day of Christmas

I smiled at you on that sacred night

The tears overflowed, though I will love you forever, why?

Now the snow dances as they fall, and at the sky far beyond here

someone new is waiting, holding on to a feeling that will never fade

We smiled at each other in those days, we were not afraid of anything

But I hurt your kindness, on that day of Christmas

I searched for dream and hope, and I found nothing but lost

The sky I look up to is too high, I cannot hold on to it even if I can reach it, Why?

Now the snow dances as they fall, the unhesitating feeling of those days

Continues on to a new tomorrow, a story that will never return

Even though I will wonder as I start walking, but the snowflakes that melted in my hand

will comeback again someday and reassure my heart